Monday, June 6, 2011

Transition

A week and a half ago my mom died in front of me. I was watching her heartbeat move a little spot on her chest and listening to her breathe, apnea unabated as the CPAP was removed. Her eyes had opened a few times and she was able to see that all of us four children were there. I didn't feel the change in her hand as I was holding it, but I saw the heart stop.

They say that stuff comes up and out in yoga and I have had some experience with this after a very difficult, unexpected breakup three years ago, left with more questions than answers. I find myself wondering and a bit apprehensive about what will come up in the future because of my mom's death.